Friday, December 27, 2013

Post Christmas Invitation to the Table




Voice 1:  Arise, beloved ones
and come to the feast
where all are welcome
and all is ready.

God’s light has become manifest----
the light shines in and around you
but also within you.
Let it shine.

Voice 2  Let the transforming power of love
shed light into your chaotic places,
your tragic places, and your hopeful places.
Let it fill you.

Voice 1:  You cannot see the path ahead,
you cannot divine the way.
You will make the road by walking it.
You will go home a different way.
Do not be afraid.

God knows that our deepest fear
is not that we are inadequate:
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful
beyond measure.
“It is our light; not our darkness
that most frightens us.
We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant,
gorgeous, talented, and fabulous?
Actually, who are you not to be?

Voice 2: Come, gorgeous ones
to the table of life
and share this meal
for all is prepared,  
all is ready for you.

(People come forward and place their gifts around the table)

Voice 1: The Holy One is here in our minds and in our hearts.

Voice 2:   Let us open our spirits to God.
We come open and ready. We give thanks and praise!

Voice 1:  O God, our mother and father, bread baker and wine maker, we give you thanks and praise. You worked the world into being, instilled all creation with life, and shaped us as your people.

Voice 2: In Jesus Christ, the bread of life and the true vine,
You feed us with the Word and quench our thirst for justice.
At table with a circle of his friends,
Jesus took bread and blessed and broke it, and gave it to them saying:  “Take. Eat. This is my body given for you.
Remember me, each time you do this.”

Voice 1: After supper he took a cup, gave God thanks for the wine,
and shared it with his friends saying: “Take. Drink. This is my blood, love poured out for you. Remember me, each time you drink it.”

Voice 2:  Spirit of the Living God, help us recognize the risen Christ
in the breaking of the bread and the sharing of the cup.
Send your blessing on this bread;
Send your grace upon this cup.
This is the feast of love for the people of God.

Voice 1 (holding up the bread) May the living God be reborn in you.  Please pass the bread to the person next to you.

Voice 2 (holding up the cup of wine, “Love born and poured out for you.”


painting by ChrisCowan

Monday, May 27, 2013

Meditations on our Gospel Reading or John was not a Mother



In celebration and memory of giving birth to my daughter Colette
June 29, 1986
  
“Very truly, I tell you, you will weep and mourn, but the world will rejoice; you will have pain, but your pain will turn into joy. When a woman is in labor, she has pain, because her hour has come. But when her child is born she no longer remembers the anguish because of the joy of having brought a human being into the world.” (John 16: 20-21)

I read this Gospel message on Sunday. It was part of our lectionary reading for Trinity Sunday and I knew that this wasn’t true as I read it. Women do remember and I remember actually writing in my journal in the wee hours of the morning shortly after delivering my beautiful baby girl in less than ½ hour that the pain was unbearable. I wrote about wanting to get off the table and calling the whole thing off. I wrote about wanting pain killers but was told I was too far along. I pleaded that even though I took the Lamaz class it was OK with me to use drugs. I wrote in permanent ink about the pain so I would not forget in case I decided to do this again. Afterwards I couldn’t help thinking that each person I met went through some process like this in being born. Each mother I met I blessed for this shared pain.

You see I came into the hospital 9 centimeters dilated and went immediately into transistion. My husband was disappointed we didn’t get to practice all the breathing exercises we had practiced for weeks. I was freaked out that the class hadn’t really cover “transistion” for fear we might accidentally go there in class.

So I am here to say that women do remember the pain and we remember the joy too. They are part of the same imbilical chord. They are twins. And equally important theologically, joy does not cancel out pain. It comes forth in spite of the pain. It comes in and through the pain. Telling people that you won’t remember the pain is not only false; ask any mother who has had natural childbirth, it reinforces a theology that diminishes the power and purpose of pain.

In the middle of the birthing ordeal when all I wanted to do was scream and have this over, the ever kind and patient nurse said something I will always remember. She said, “Honey, you can scream as much as you want but the pain you are experiencing is the baby moving down the birth canal. Imagine this movement like a wave rolling to the shore. Ride it, honey, ride it in.” This helpful advice changed everything. I rode those waves in until the head emerged and she came out with her own screams of terror and joy. The pain was my own body contracting and opening, pushing out new life. The pain itself was good and redeeming.

So how do the facts of how real women give birth challenge a theology of pain forgotten in favor of a greater joy? I think it suggests that joy comes not from forgetting but rather moving through. There is joy in the movement not just the outcome. Don’t get me wrong. There is a joy like heaven on earth to hold your baby girl in your arms but there is also a joy in knowing, in experiencing your own body and spirit making the way possible. One does not diminish or cancel the other.

The good news, then, is that the process of giving birth is painful and beautiful because it hurts to expand our boundaries, to allow a new being to come forth. It should never be forgotten. Remembering this makes other painful events and times bearable because it reminds us that this is how new life comes to us.

Happy Birthday Colette. Your birthday is also mine. Together we entered a new life. May we both always remember that the pain and the joy are intertwined, that they both serve us.


Monday, April 29, 2013

Olive Tree Worship Service: April 27, 2013




Once a month St. Andrews holds an alternative meditative service for people living in the area. The focus for April was Fire. In between Taize chants we read and responded to images of fire. A number of Ecumenical Accompaniers commented on witnessing or attending to Palestinians who had been shot. 


Fire Readings


Some say the world will end in fire. Some say in ice. From what I’ve tasted of desire I hold with those who favor fire. But if it had to perish twice, I think I know enough of hate to say that
for destruction is also great and would suffice.        
Robert Frost

Moses was keeping the flock of his father-in-law Jethro, the priest of Midian; he led his flock beyond the wilderness, and came to Horeb, the mountain of God. There the angel of the Lord appeared to him in a flame of fire out of a bush; he looked and the bush was blazing, yet it was not consumed. Then Moses said, “I must turn aside to see, God called to him out of the bush, “Moses, Moses! And he said, “Here I am.”  Then he said, “Come no closer! Remove the sandals from your feet, for the place you are standing is holy ground.”    Exodus 3:1-5

bombs in Gaza



Now there was a great wind, so strong that it was splitting mountains and breaking rocks in pieces before, the Lord, but the Lord was not in the earthquake; and after the earthquake a fire, but the Lord was not in the fire, and after the fire, a sound of silence.
         I Kings 19: 11b-12

Earth is crammed with heaven
And every bush aflame with God
But only those who see take off their shoes.
                  Elizabeth Barrett Browning


Holy Fire


Self Portrait

It doesn’t interest me if there is one God
or many gods.
I want to know if you belong or feel
abandoned.
If you know despair or can see it in others.
I want to know
if you are prepared to live in the world
with its harsh need
to change you. If you can look back
with firm eyes
saying this is where I stand. I want to know
if you know
how to melt into that fierce heat of living
falling toward
the center of your longing. I want to know
if you are willing
to live, day by day, with the consequence of love
and the bitter
unwanted passion of your sure defeat.
I have been told, in that fierce embrace, even
the gods speak of God.
         David Whyte



Someday, after mastering the winds, the waves, the tides and gravity, we shall harness for God the energies of love, and then, for a second time in history of the world, man will have discovered fire.
                  Pierre Teilhard de Chardin


The Truth stands before me.
On my left is a blazing fire, and
on my right, a cool flowing stream.
One group of people walk toward the fire, into the fire,
and the other towards the cool flowing waters.
No one knows which is blessed and which is not.
But just as someone enters the fire,
the head bobs up from the water.
And just as a head sinks into the water,
that face appears in the fire.
Those who love the sweet water of pleasure
and make it their devotion are cheated by this reversal,
the deception goes further---
The voice of the fire says:
“I am not fire, I am fountainhead,
come into me and don’t mind the sparks.”
         Rumi



When the day of Pentecost had come,
They were all together in one place.
And suddenly from heaven there came a sound
Like the rush of a violent wind, and it filled the entire house
Where they were sitting. Divided tongues, as of fire,
Appeared before them, and a tongue rested on each of them.
                  Acts 2: 1-4


Sunday, April 7, 2013

Courage to Live Resurrected Lives


The following is the prayer I created for Prayers for the People for the Second Sunday after Easter at Saint Adrews. It begins with a prayer from the UCC minister and poet Maren Tirabassi writing in an online experiment in doing church online. The rest is my midrash on the texts of the day. Unfortunately or fortunately I forgot the prayer at home and had to remember what I had written so the prayer the folks at church was different from this. One important difference was that I said it was the business of this church to stick its fingers in the bloody sides of suffering. I like the addition.



Gracious God, may your name and the born,broken, risen incarnation be hallowed.
Give us this day our daily breath to sing your coming,
and in our remembering of you in sacrament bread and breakfast toast,
may your will be done.
forgivers and forgiven, we come to the source of our strength against temptation
and our endurance in suffering----
for yours is the holiness and the humanness and the beauty forever...
and in our lives right now. Amen.

Creator God, who made us in your own image,
who gave us bodies and said they were good,
help us not be afraid of your son's wounds or
the still bleeding sores of your suffering people.
Give us the boldness of Thomas to stick our fingers in to your bloody side,
into the warring and hurt filled places of our world.

Sovereign God, who commands our allegiance and obedience
above all other authorities including governments,
guide us now in how to live resurrected lives
based on sharing and compassion,
working for peace with justice.

God, who poured out his love for us
who allowed himself to be broken open for us,
be patient with us as we adjust to a new life
based on mutuality and love
where death has no dominion,
where you will continue to meet us on whatever road we are walking.

Monday, April 1, 2013

Witnesses to the Fact

The below is the prayer I read at St. Andrew's Easter sunrise service. I particularly like "draw forth our faithfulness from places of entombment; bring it to the light of day; set it free." We are all entombed and in need of resurrection. We are also all witnesses to God having raised Jesus to life.

On the way to Easter lunch a fellow minister asked if I believed in a bodily resurrection and I answered, "Yes." I was surprised at my answer. I didn't always. However, as I've come to really believe in the incarnation I have also come to believe in a bodily resurrection. Jesus was born and Jesus died. The tomb was empty. Death has no dominion.  Resurrection is a full mind, body, spirit, experience.

This is also why I love Thomas. He had to see and touch the wounds in Jesus' hands to believe it was him. Jesus is resurrected wounds and all. It's not just his spirit but his very broken and wounded body. All is let free.  May we live as if we too believe this is so.

Blessings of new life-----


From Early in the Morning 5

O God we gather this Easter morning to express
gratitude in word and song.
We offer our thanks that when you could have abandoned us
you chose instead to affirm steadfast presence.
And we offer our thanks that the amazing graciousness of what
you will for your children far exceeds our expectations, our imaginings, even our hopes.

In days to come, may we live in Christ.
Show your power through us as you did through the crucified one.
Draw forth our faithfulness from places of entombment;
bring it to the light of day; set it free.

We pray in the name of the resurrected and risen Christ.
Amen.

Sending

Go, in awe of the creation., the incarnation, the death and resurrection of our God...
and give thanks. For God has raised Jesus to life, and we are all witnesses to the fact.

Monday, March 25, 2013

Olive Branch Worship


March 23, 2013
St. Andrews Scotts Memorial Church


Land

To tend a garden is a precious thing.
But dearer still the one where all may roam,
the weeds of poison, poverty, and war,
demand your care, who call the earth your home.
Kathy Galloway, Soul Weavings


Come and be still surrounded by candlelight darkness, meditative liturgy, prayers, chants and readings. Providing space for interior reflection and quiet, this meditational Saturday evening service is offered when the work of the week is completed and the calm of the weekend’s eve settles over our hearts and minds. Come and be still.

About our altar: Each month the gathered community will create the sacred space according to the theme of the month. You are invited to bring a reading or an object to share. We will also provide some materials for you to create a response to our theme.

The service begins with the sound of the bells

Welcome

 Music
                  Kristen plays flute

Lighting of candles in bowls while we sing 
God to Enfold Us (Iona) singing 3 times

God to enfold us, Christ to uphold us,
Spirit to keep us in heaven’s sight;
So may God grace us, heal us, embrace us,
Lead us through the darkness into the light

Opening Prayer  (from Rabbi Arthur Waskow)

One:     In the beginning, darkness covered the face of the deep.
Many:  Then the rushing breath of life hovered over the waters.
All:       Let us breathe together.
One:     Let us catch our breath from the need to make, to do.
Many:   Let us be conscious of the Breath of Life.
One:     We breathe out what the trees breathe in.
Many:   We breathe in what the trees breathe out.
All:       Together we breathe each other into life.
     Blessed is the One within the many.
     Blessed are the Many who make one.
        
This is My Song (tune Findlandia)     verse 1
This is my song, Oh God of all the nations,
a song of Peace for lands afar and mine.
This is my home, the country where my heart is;
here are my hopes, my dreams, my sacred shrine.
but other hearts in other lands are beating,
with hopes and dreams as true and high as mine.

Reading or Sharing


This is My Song   verse 2
My country’s skies are bluer than the ocean,
and sunlight beams on cloverleaf and pine.
But other lands have sunlight too and clover,
and skies are everywhere as blue as mine.
Oh hear my song, oh God of all the nations,
a song of Peace for their land and for mine.

Reading or Sharing

This is My Song  verse 3

May Truth and Freedom come to every nation;
may Peace abound where strife has raged so long;
that each may seek to love and build together,
a world united, righting every wrong;
a world united in its love for freedom,
proclaiming Peace together in one song.

Reading or Sharing

“Come and fill our hearts” (Taize) three times

Come and fill our hearts with your peace.
You alone, O Lord, are holy.
Come and fill our hearts with your peace, alleluia

Prayers for Ourselves, Others, and Creation

“Were You There When They Crucified My Lord”

Chorus: Were you there when they crucified my Lord?
Were you there when they crucified my Lord?
Oh! Sometimes it causes me to tremble, tremble, tremble.
Were you there when they crucified my Lord?

Were you there when they nailed him to the tree?
Were you there when they nailed him to the tree?
Oh! Sometimes it causes me to tremble, tremble, tremble.
Were you there when they nailed him to the tree?

Were you there when they laid him in the tomb?
Were you there when they laid him in the tomb?
Oh! Sometimes it causes me to tremble, tremble, tremble.
Were you there when they laid him in the tomb?

Were you there when God raised him from the dead?
Were you there when God raised him from the dead?
Oh! Sometimes it causes me to tremble, tremble, tremble.
Were you there when God raised him from the dead?

Reading or Sharing

Sharing the Sign of Peace

Sending Song    Bless Now, O God, The Journey
Tune: Nettleton 339       Words: Sylvia Dunstan

Bless now, O God, the journey that all your people make,
the path through noise and silence, the way of give and take.
The trail is found in the desert and wends the mountain round.

Bless sojourners and pilgrims who share this winding way;
your hope burns through the terrors, your love sustains the day.
We yearn for holy freedom while often we are bound;
together we are seeking the road where faith is found.

Divine eternal lover, you meet us on the road.
We wait for lands of promise where milk and honey flow,
but waiting not for places, you meet us all around.
Our covenant is written on roads, as faith is found.

Sending Prayer

Sending Blessing
Deep peace of the running wave to you.
Deep peace of the flowing air to you.
Deep peace of the quiet earth to you.
Deep peace of the shining stars to you.
Deep peace of the infinite peace to you.

Readings


My homeland is not a traveling bag.
Nor am I a passing traveler.
It is I who am the lover.
And the land is my beloved.
Mahmoud Darwish, Diary of a Wound

Genesis 8: 6-12
At the end of 40 days Noah opened the window of the ark that he had made and sent out a raven; and it went to and fro until the waters were dried up from the earth. Then he sent out the dove from him, to see if the waters had subsided from the face of the ground; but the dove found no place to set its foot, and it returned to him to the ark, for the waters were still on the face of the whole earth. So he put out his hand and took it into the ark with him. He waited another seven days, and again he sent out the dove from the ark; and the dove came back to him in the evening, and there in his beak was a freshly plucked olive leaf; so Noah knew that the waters had subsided from the earth. Then he waited another seven days, and sent out the dove; and it did not return to him anymore.

I thank You God for most this amazing
day for the leaping greenly spirits of trees
and a blue true dream of sky, and for everything
which is natural which is infinite which is yes

(i who have died am alive again today,
and this is the sun’s birthday; this is the birth
day of life and of love and wings: and of the gay
great happening illimitably earth)

how should tasting touching hearing seeing
breathing any---lifted from the no
of all nothing---human merely being
doubt unimaginable You?

(now the ears of my ears awake and
now the eyes of my eyes are opened)
                  ee cummings

Good people,
most royal greening verdancy,
rooted in the sun,
you shine with radiant light.
In this circle of earthly existence
you shine so finely,
It surpasses understanding.
God hugs you.
You are encircled by the arms
of the mystery of God.
         Hildegard of Bingen


Deuteronomy 8: 6-10
Therefore keep the commandments of the Lord your God, by walking in his ways and by fearing him. For the Lord your God
Is bringing you into a good land, a land with flowering streams, with springs and underground waters welling in valleys of vines and fig trees and pomegranates, a land of olive trees and honey, a land where you can eat bread without scarcity, where you will lack nothing, a land whose stones are iron and from whose hills you may mine copper. You shall et your fill and bless the Lord your God for the good land that he has given you.


The dignity of nature as creation needs to be bound up with our responsibility for the preservation of life.
                           World Council of Churches


We know that in all Creation
Only the human family
Has Strayed from the Sacred Way.
.
We know that we are the ones who are divided
And we are the ones who must come back together
To Walk in the Sacred Way.
.
Sacred One,
Teach us love, compassion, and honor
That we may heal the earth
And heal each other.
-- A prayer of the Ojibway Nation

…A small evening
a neglected village
two sleeping eyes
thirty years
five wars
I witness that time hides for me
An ear of wheat
The singer sings
Of fire and strangers
Evening was evening
The singer was singing
And they question him
Why do you sing?
He answers them as they seize him
because I sing

And they have searched him:
in his breast only his heart
in his heart only his people
in his voice only his sorrow.
Mahmoud Darwish from poem of the land


I have always found it difficult not to be moved by Jerusalem, even when I hated it---and God knows I have hated it for the sheer human cost of it. But the sight of it, from a far or inside the labyrinth of its walls, softens me. Every inch of it holds the confidence of ancient civilizations, their deaths and their birthmarks pressed deep into the city’s viscera and onto the rubble of its edges. The deified and the condemned have set their footprints in its sand. It has been conquered, razed, and rebuilt so many times that its stones seem to possess life, bestowed by the audit trail of prayer and blood.  Yet somehow, it exhales humility.  It sparks an inherent sense of familiarity in me---that doubtless, irrefutable Palestinian certainty that I belong to this land. It possesses me, no matter who conquers it, because its soil is the keeper of my roots, of the bones of my ancestors. Because it knows the private lust of my foremothers. Because I am the natural seed of its passionate, tempestuous past. I am a daughter of the land, and Jerusalem reassures me of this inalienable title, far more than yellowed property deeds, the Ottoman land registries, the iron keys to our stolen homes, or UN resolutions and decrees of superpowers could ever do.
         From Mornings in Jenin  by Susan Abulhawa